Friday, September 19, 2014

a week's worth of odds + ends

^ we bought Birdie some Russia alphabet blocks and she has been loving them! ^
^ I recently made my favorite "fall" dessert - pumpkin apple bread ^
I'm not sure how many more of these I'll do before the baby comes. My energy decreases with every passing day and home cooked meals are few and far between. The other day I went to the Starbucks drive through for breakfast, McDonald's for lunch and we got take out for dinner... Guilty doesn't even begin to cover it. I do take pride in the fact that I still cook Birdie meals three times a day so at least someone in this house is eating decently. 
I also am completely useless when it comes to keeping this house clean so we're planning on hiring a company to come and do a deep clean in the next couple of weeks. Have any of you had a really good experience with a specific company? I would love to pick one based on word of mouth. I just figure I can't do anything now and from the sounds of it I doubt I'll be doing much of anything after the c-section too. So might as well start with a clean slate when it comes to this house. 
As far as good news goes papa bear and I finally hired a babysitter and are going on a date night tonight!! You can't even imagine how excited I am about this. The thought of being able to look at each other during our meal and not have to yell over Mickey Mouse Club just makes my heart soar!! Though we are both a bit nervous as we have never actually left Birdie with a babysitter. Even when we had a nanny for a few months last year I was always at home with her. But mama and papa's happiness is important to Birdie's happiness and I know that this time that we will get to spend just the two of us will help us be a better husband and wife as well as better parents. So here's to date nights!!

Have a great weekend y'all!!


Thursday, September 18, 2014

oh my deer!

dress - boden, bag - anthro, socks - target, shoes - hasbeens

We've officially reached the point in this pregnancy where it's pretty much go time. At our OB appointment this week baby boy was head down and at "station two." Also, I'm 2 cm dilated (insert wide eyed emoji here). This is when the midwife gives you the classic "he can come in a week or five weeks" talk. I love that talk... Don't you pregnant mamas??? It has a marvelous way of giving you false hope that you may be out of your misery sooner rather than later and at the same time making you feel like you're going to just keep ballooning into infinity. It just makes me want to have a tantrum and lord knows we have enough of those around here as it is. 
So instead I do what any somewhat sane woman in her third trimester does - I nest my bum off. I'm packing my hospital bag today and I even bought an embarrassingly large package of those Hanes granny panties so y'all know I mean business!! The moses basket is due to be delivered by the end of this week and I'm going to pick up a few more newborn diapers next time I'm out. The time that I'm not nesting I spend in my closet having serious/threatening conversations with my maternity clothes and warning them that "winter is coming" as in it will be just a few weeks before they are put away never to see the light of day again... Ok, so I'm being a bit dramatic but can you blame a girl for missing wearing something that actually has a defined waist?? Until then I can be found wearing this dress. Because it feels like pajamas and that's pretty rad. 

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

a change, a new season

Blogging, and I suppose instagram (since it is practically surpassing blogging at this point), thrive on predictability and a well curated image. People follow certain bloggers because, in my humble opinion, they enjoy seeing a certain lifestyle through a certain type of lens on a daily basis. There are so many lenses but just to name a few there are the hipster, outdoorsy, glittery, colorful, preppy, kinfolk, etc... lenses. I'm not immune to this phenomenon either. When we lived at the cabin I think you may have come to expect the woodsy, "natural" and simple lifestyle. It's what we lived and breathed and it is what plastered my instagram and came through in my posts.
But life changes and moves quickly and often those changes aren't up to us. We knew our family needed something different this year and we prayed and searched and worked hard to find that place for us. And as life would have it that place is here in Atlanta in the south. Gone is the cabin, gone are our beloved woods and gone is the rural life we lived.
When our family and friends came to our new home for the first time everyone couldn't help but remark at how "suburban" it all was. And it's true. We live in a subdivision amongst a slew of homes that inside and out look more or less the same. I suppose to those who know us well it's all a bit jarring. And initially it was an adjustment for us too. But honestly at the end of the day the country life had worn out it's welcome when it came to us. Perhaps there are some people that can make that work indefinitely but I am not going to lie to you and say that it was perfect. When it was just papa bear and myself it really was as dreamy as it seemed - the days we got snowed in, the endless country roads, the rustic reclusiveness of it all. But with a baby the charms began to wear off pretty quickly. The fact that it took a full half hour to get anywhere from the cabin drove me crazy, especially on the weeks when it seemed like I had forgotten something crucial at Target every time I went there. The harsh winters were brutal for our nerves, never knowing how long we would have to be cooped up inside or whether or not we would have power. So when the time came to move, and we knew we would be moving to a large metropolitan city, we welcomed the change.
Do I sometimes wish we lived in a home with more character and a layered history and charming nooks and crannies? Yes. Do I often mourn my white kitchen (so embarrassingly obsessed with white kitchens over here... but practicality prevailed over aesthetics this time) and long for the gleaming white subway tiled confections that crowd my pinterest feed? Yes. Do I miss creaking hardwood floors? Yes. But the truth is there was nothing like that in our price range here and in reality everything I just listed is the making of a dream home and I'm not sure we deserve our dream home yet. One day I know we will build it or buy it but for right now yes, we are living a very cookie cutter suburban existence. And you know what?! I love it and I'm not fighting it.
I've never seen much of a point in lamenting one's current circumstances (especially when that lamenting is about "likes" and "wants" not "needs"), instead I've always chosen to embrace whatever season of life we happen to be in at the moment. So although I don't have my dream white kitchen I have a sizable pantry that makes life so much easier and a laundry room where I can hide all those dirty clothes that used to occasionally litter our dining room back at the cabin. And yes this home really lacks any sort of character but I believe that you can bring character to a home and we've been doing just that. And where it lacks in character it makes up for in comfort and for that I am incredibly grateful. It's big and we have a guest room which will come in so handy in just a few weeks when there will be a revolving cast of family and friends coming to stay with us to help with baby boy.
I suppose this is a very long and drawn out way of saying that you will see changes, both here and on instagram. Perhaps for some of you our new life is no longer be of interest and I certainly understand that. There are plenty of other people that deliver in the "woodsy cabin" department still and I love them to bits for it. But I've always been about embracing change and for those of you that are willing to embrace this change with us I send you a hearty e-hug! There's going to be a lot less woods, wild horses and farm stands around here from now on but you can still expect to see our babies, our faces and everything that makes up our life! So I suppose welcome to Flora & Fauna 2.0!*

*Speaking of which this little corner is in terrible need of some sprucing up so if you know of someone who can help with that I would be uber grateful!

Friday, September 12, 2014

a week's worth of odds + ends

^ I rarely take the time to make myself a nice breakfast these days but occasionally it happens ^
^ two little beds on either side of this dresser make my heart explode! ^
^ I washed Birdie's old bear suit and swaddles for baby boy ^
^ papa bear fell asleep on the job... ^

I don't sleep anymore and I suppose that's normal. I've been awake since 4:30 this morning and then Birdie was awoken by the torrential rain that began to beat against our windows around 5:30 am. By six we had all given up on trying to sleep so we put on Alice in Wonderland and cuddled up together while the rain came down. 
I'm really trying to cherish and bottle up moments like these. Before falling asleep last night papa bear expressed the same bittersweet feelings I've been having too - the way we both can't wait to meet baby boy but also are already mourning the fact that Birdie will no longer be our whole world. It's all we've known for almost two years and right now it almost seems impossible to make room in our hearts for anyone else. She has filled our life with so much love and joy, I don't see how we could possibly feel more or love more than this little person. I know we will but the feelings are there nonetheless. 
On a lighter note we transitioned Birdie to a toddler bed two weeks ago. We wanted to make sure to do that before baby boy comes so that she doesn't associate any big changes with her little brother's arrival (his presence alone will be enough of an adjustment). I have to say we have both been shocked at how well it went! We fully prepared ourselves for sleepless nights and for a possible "falling" incident but I am happy to report that neither has happened! In fact she seems to sleep better in her new bed! She has slept through the night practically every day for the past two weeks and goes down for naps easily. I think she really loves it actually! She's always been quite independent and I think she really enjoys the freedom she has with this bed. 
I also finally finished the nursery this week. I unpacked all of Birdie's newborn things, we ordered and put a mattress into the crib and hung up the last of the pictures. We're so happy with how it's all come together even if we cannot wrap our minds around seeing two kiddos in that room. And soon too!! Speaking of which we have less than a month left and I am in full nesting mode. I didn't think it would happen a second time around but I have been obsessed with organizing, folding and preparing. Now I just need this baby boy to come join us! Side note: you totally forget just how tiny newborn diapers are!! They look like they are meant for a doll!